I feel as if my Bulimia is completely taking over my life. Its so hard to hang out with my friends. I feel like its a combination of i don't want to be around them and they don't want to be around me. Earlier today i felt like today was going to be a "fat day" and i wasn't going to eat well i had to so things got worse.The other night i felt as if i was "lite" so lite i could float but that all changed when i woke up this morning... I didnt eat at all on Tuesday and i felt great :). When i eat i feel as if im so heavy,sluggish, and tired, I thought you're suppose to feel that way when you don't eat? Im getting bad into counseling and i honestly scared because im not ready to stop! and im afraid they will force me to get better..
I do hate it but its more of a love/hate kinda thing like being frinemeies.
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